I'm a college grad. 4 years of hopping around, not knowing what i want, and i'm here. I'm happy but in my normal modest way i don't think much of it. Maybe someday I will.
People are leaving and soon, I will be too. Chicago, Baltimore, L.A. I'm proud of all of them but I'm sad that I won't be able to see those good friends on a daily basis. It will be weird and scary but fun. Some of my favorite people are moving close to me or with me and thats comforting. I know a few people in the city already and some are also new, so we can explore together. I am excited about all the people I am going to meet. I'm scared to go to school. I am still not where I should be with my writing, and It's unsettling. I might have a tutor lined up but I should be taking a class or something I am positive about. I can't show up with the same lack of style and mechanics that I have now.
Some of my favorite people have found eachother, after years of chasing. And I couldnt be happier. I know its hard to have long distance relationships and having a new relationship and trying to make that work with those same obstacels id even harder but I have hope and I am really rooting for them. Both of them need someone like the other. They are good people. They deserve good people. I am happy they finally realized it. I love them.
Hopefully the same will be said for me in a few months. But who knows. For now I'm enjoying thing while I can. I have my whole life ahead of me and I have so many great things planned for these upcoming months. Some things might get me down, but with the future I have right now, I'm not worrying about it.
-k
